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it’s time
It’s the quiet and non busy times that it affects me. So, I just need to keep my brain busy. It feels like a break up. It’s hard to spend time together because I still feel like I’ve been lied to and taken advantage of. We’ve stopped talking every day. It’s my new normal and…
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I’ve wallowed enough
The migraine that’s currently clouding my brain is telling me it’s time to let it go. What’s the point in holding on to the hurt. It doesn’t make things better. I confronted my friend this evening. I do not like confrontation. In fact, I’m definitely more of an avoidance type of person, so this was…
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Cut my losses?
There’s little effort on my friends part to keep this friendship going. I know things go through phases, but at what point do I stop making an effort? Do I continue to put as much effort in as I normally would or do I hold back? How long do I do this for. I’m exhausted…
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Friendship changes
So I need to make a decision. I know I do. Am I making things harder for myself by trying to salvage the friendship? It feels one sided. Am I happy to carry this for now and hope some thing changes and we get back to something closer to what was normal? Is this normal…
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Grandad
My grandad was my favourite person in the world. He was the kindest and most humble person I’d known. I miss him every single day. He died in March 2020 just as the first lockdowns came into effect. He’d been ill for quite some time. Pulmonary fibrosis. He was in pain, and when he was…
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Anxiety and weight loss
To be honest I self diagnosed, I’ve sought no medical advice. But the change I felt inside my whole body as a result of my changing friendship was immense. To blame it solely on that friendship isn’t right, I’m sure there are many contributing factors, but that’s the thing that triggered the change in my…
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Friendship changes and feeling lost
This is a bit ‘wo is me’, so you’ll have to forgive me. We reconnected after his relationship breakdown having first met in school. We’ve drifted in and out of each other’s lives over the years, but over the last 12 months, he’s become my best friend. My favourite person to spend time with. I…
Overthinking, always 