So I need to make a decision. I know I do.

Am I making things harder for myself by trying to salvage the friendship?

It feels one sided. Am I happy to carry this for now and hope some thing changes and we get back to something closer to what was normal?

Is this normal now? Do I cut my losses and move on? Be grateful for the year we had?

Is socialising with mutual friends is going to be awkward or am I making too much of a big deal out of the situation?

I need something to distract from this being a big deal.